I'm just a girl

I have made a lot of progress over the last couple of years.
My ability to communicate in situations I don't like has grown by leaps and bounds.
I don't run anymore.
I don't feel trapped into staying, because I go where I want.
I take life by the horns, look it in the eye, and tell it what I want.
I don't second guess myself like I once did.
I don't apologize for being myself.

But for all my strengths, I'm just a girl.
I'm just a girl whose heart is two sizes too tall.
I'm just a girl who has to step back sometimes because I feel too much.
I'm just a girl who wants the best for people around me.
I'm just a girl who notices the people who are gone.
I'm just a girl who can see through your mask.
I'm just a girl who doesn't know how hard to try.
I'm just a girl, who doesn't want to go because there's still someone else here.
I'm just a girl who doesn't know what to do.
I'm just a girl who doesn't know where to find you.
I'm just a girl who's afraid to connect.
I'm just a girl who doesn't  know how to  help.
I'm just a girl who cries when you're gone, and then cries when you're back.
I'm just a girl who hasn't known you long enough to care but I do anyway

But despite all these things...
I will not be blamed for your pain.
I will not stay while you accuse me.
I will not look forever.
I will not wait forever.
I will not try forever.

But I will miss you, and I will remember.

I'm just a girl.

My room is a disaster.
My heart is torn in two.
My laundry is not done.
My pillows are lumpy.

I'm just a girl, and I miss you.