Springtime

I realize that a good percentage of what I post on this blog is dramatic and depressing most days. I'm sorry, my emotions dictate the tone of my writing a lot more than I ever realized, and I've been working through some really hard stuff since.. pretty much forever I guess. Especially the last couple years. Life is never easy, especially when you're alone, or far away from people that you wish you could be closer to. The problem with wishing you were somewhere else, is missing out on what happens where you ARE. And that makes you more alone.
And when you're alone, it feels like winter all the time.
This poem is dedicated to a person who has helped me (perhaps without knowing)time and again, find springtime inside myself when I thought only frozen winter existed. Though you may not know it now, you have made a difference in my life too. Some day I will give you a proper thank you, but until then this will have to do.



Though my thoughts are like stormy black weather,
And my temper runs hot or stands chill
When, my friend, you and I are together
I can feel my heart quicken, then still.

When you're with me my heart bleeds out sunshine
When you're gone clouds come back here to stay.
Please don't leave me, dear friend, if you don't mind
Please come back, I've got something to say.

It was dark. In my heart was December,
All the colors had faded away .
It was then that I found you. Remember?
Then we danced all the darkness away.

Then alone. Tears had come but long since dried.
I was frozen, limbs heavy as lead
And within me a voice lashing out cried
"You've got nothing upstairs in your head!"

Then you came and sat down right beside me
And with you came a change in the weather.
It is springtime again, deep inside me
When, my friend, we are walking together.